drink, get drunk and forget

need to get rid of all the pests.
i hate bugs.
they shud all go away.
make them disappear!
NOW!!!

don't tell me what to do.
stop questioning. if i don't question ur intentions/actions, then don't question mine.
in a life full of doubt, suspicion and cruelty, we certainly don't need to contribute to that.
believe it is fully self-sustaining. in fact, thriving very well.
already feels like my life has been significantly shortened.

could use a couple of jagerbombs...
i was told, 6 and your eyes will go rolling.
i'm gonna try for 4!
let's see what happens.

the winner takes it all

so many questions running through my mind.
could it have been all just a lie?

how difficult could it be to just come clean about it?
and i had to find out through people & technology.

perhaps it's casual, perhaps it's convenient.
my feelings sure as hell wasn't important.

everyone says all humans are naturally selfish, i thought - no. not you.
i wouldn't say i think extremely highly of you.
though you were quite there.

the last person i thought i would ever have to second guess.
it didn't and shouldn't have had to turn out this way.
refusing to believe that life is just built on lies or denial but guess what, it has been proven.
of all people, of all things.
through it all, all this while, utmost faith & trust. no doubt about it.

things were almost perfect, i couldn't ask for more.
but somehow, unexpectedly, reality sets in and I get slapped in the cheek.

painful, it's true.
but don't worry, it'll all come to an end.
it always does.